An email writer sent me a list of questions about my saying I am a Christian. Among other question are some that are more personal and less about doctrine or dogma. The questions I will answer to the best of my abilities, but, and this is an important but, I don't represent any form of Christianity, I do not claim to know more than any other believer, and I am flawed as possible as a human. I am not an example for others to follow.
If God is everywhere, where is his presence? Why can't I see him?
I am not altogether sure why you can't see "him" but I know when I see or feel the presence of God. I have experienced hearing God's voice, and I have experienced feeling God's presence near me. I think it happens when you have a direct answer to prayer. I have felt the presence when I would sing with others songs of praise. I have felt God near me when I've experienced joy, in the presence of loved ones, and when I am moved by the love others show me. I am not altogether an outdoors person, I don't camp, I don't fish, I don't hunt, plant gardens, cut down trees. But there have been times when I was so moved by nature I knew God was responsible. Do I see God or God's face? No. But I am able to feel and see his hand in the magnificence of nature, the power of love and family, and I see proof of God in the miracles I've seen. But if I only felt or saw God's presence in miracles I would suggest that I would not have as strong of faith as I do.
Do you agree with the belief in Jesus is the sole manner of entering Heaven?
Yes and no. I believe in the Bible. I follow the directions and teachings found in the book. I believe that God sent Jesus to earth to offer humans a chance to commune with God. By Christ's dying, we are no longer Hell bound. I believe that my sin blocks my path to Heaven, but Christ's blood is the perfect sacrifice.
I do not look at other faith's and condemn them to Hell. That isn't my job. I also don't know all of God's plans, abilities, more than knowing I what I believe. My hope is that God's mercy is large enough to be embraced by all people of faith. I am not the final judge and I refuse to make myself sick with worry for people of other faith. I am not saying I do not care, I am saying, I trust God enough to know that I don't know the answer.
Is there a Hell?
I am not a believer in Hell as a place with fire and torment. Instead I believe in Oblivion. I believe that being disconnected forever is Hell. But, I do not know. I do read the bible and see hell there, but I think it is a metaphysical reality, not a physical or inevitable reality.
Do you see yourself going to Heaven?
I am not the most positive of people, and some of that is from my being an INFJ, and having PTSD. So to be very honest, while I believe in God, and I believe I am following the rules, I know that I am dirty and full of sin. I've done terrible things in my life. And I regret them. And I have repented of them. But I am certain of one thing regarding entry into Heaven, God will have mercy upon whoever God has mercy upon. I have a faith that never burns out because I feel like I have live up to the legacy and destiny I have chosen.
Are Homosexuals going to Hell? Can they be Christians?
I think of God as being just. Whatever the bible says about God's view of homosexuality, I believe he is about both Justice and Love. I think if God is real, there is justice. If God isn't real, then it all will be lost in the end of matter. Therefore, I think humans are wrong and God is right. So Homosexuals can find God.
Will God punish people who do not sin, but do not, also, believe in God?
I do not know. I do know that it has been said that no human can be sinless, and only Christ was without sin. I really do not know. Again, I am not God, and I am content that God is just.