Saturday, April 22, 2017

You rebel you

I am often told that I think too much.  When in my mind people do not think enough.  I am told I feel too much.  When in my mind people don't feel.  They are emotional, perhaps, but lie about what they actually feel.  Or they play the role that society has chosen for them.

All of this is part of how we allow society to assign a niche for who we are.  If you are a white male, in Western society you are said to receive privilege.  If you happen to be emotional and artistic, however, you are said to be a fag.

We might be individuals, we might be.  But in our lives we follow paths others have trod.  Doing otherwise makes you a rebel.  And rebels usually die at the end of their quest, earlier than the natural life span they might have lived.  So is that wrong?

“Awake, arise or be for ever fall’n.” John Milton  Paradise Lost

Jesus Christ was a rebel.  Gandhi was a rebel.  Buddha was a rebel.  Laozi was a rebel.  These examples are not the norm, they are the abnormal.  That they existed and were allowed to speak to various peoples, is not the norm. "K'ung Fu-tzu" or Confucius gave out life wisdom that was meant to harken back to principles that humans should live by according to Ancient conceptions in China of society.  Communism, Socialism, and Fascism all can be measured by the way they attempted to remove the individualism from society and aim efforts toward become the mythic volk, or society that lives as one unit.

I am not saying rebels are the best of society.  I am not saying all forms of Communism, Socialism, or Fascism are evil.  I am saying that most people believe themselves to be an individual, but are clearly not.

Being a rebel isn't always the best path.  Various rebellions came from abject discord, and led to horrible tragic loss of life.  Not every rebel is a saint, not every leader of society is a sinner.  It is important to have context in the path you walk.

But never assume that life means doing ________.  It doesn't mean anything other than you breathe, eat, shit, sleep, and only perhaps do more.  You are the captain of your own ship, never let others determine your goals or destination.   A vast number of great achievers in the world began life being educated for a different path than the one that they ended up walking.  We are all units of an enormous group, we are human.  But the best part of humanity, is that we can determine our own goal.

Oh Great Ares, How we worship you

 “When the rich wage war it's the poor who die.” ― Jean-Paul Sartre

 “War is what happens when language fails.”― Margaret Atwood

The Greek God Ares represented Victory in war, by any means.  His attributes included bloodlust in battle and slaughter.   The people of Earth know that war means death.  They know that there is enormous costs, financially and physically.  Every weapon made results in a theft, because the weapon was made rather than an investment in education, libraries, clean energy, removal of pollution, feeding the starving people of the world. (paraphrase of Dwight D. Eisenhower).

“Older men declare war. But it is youth that must fight and die.”― Herbert Hoover

When I say humans worship Ares, I do not mean every human, nor do I mean that they are aware of the worship they do.  But despite war being an end to some situations, humans resort to war not as a final option, they prefer it as an option.  (See the Iraq war, and the refusal to allow inspections to prove there were no WMDs. ) 

“Only the dead have seen the end of war.”― Plato

Being an American I was taught to be grateful for the sacrifice of lives in past wars.  They had died, it was said, for the defense of freedom and country.  I believe that some did.  I believe others died due to the incompetence of leadership, false beliefs about the enemy, and the fact that America has gone to war, sometimes, for bad reasons.

“Never think that war, no matter how necessary, nor how justified, is not a crime.”― Ernest Hemingway

Dying for a commodity is beyond bad, unless the commodity is oxygen or water.  Just as a person who steals food due to having no money elicits sympathy if not acceptance, a person stealing lawn chairs or drive offs at a gas pump are simply bad.  The wars fought by Americans have often been about expanding or strengthening the country.  That is somewhat reasonable.

“All war is a symptom of man's failure as a thinking animal.”― John Steinbeck

In ancient Greece, Ares is said to have been hated by the other gods, and few humans worshiped him.  But they continually made war.  Here the Greeks can be seen as another group of people who paid lip service to one value (Athena, Goddess of wisdom, and honor) but lived by another.

From Homer, author of the Iliad and the Odyssey 

Then looking at him darkly Zeus who gathers the clouds spoke to him:
"Do not sit beside me and whine, you double-faced liar.
To me you are the most hateful of all gods who hold Olympus.
Forever quarreling is dear to your heart, wars and battles.

And yet I will not long endure to see you in pain, since
you are my child, and it was to me that your mother bore you.
But were you born of some other god and proved so ruinous
long since you would have been dropped beneath the gods of the bright sky."

“The nuclear arms race is like two sworn enemies standing waist deep in gasoline, one with three matches, the other with five.”  ― Carl Sagan

I just cannot remember...

“Every man's memory is his private literature.”  Aldous Huxley

Memory is vital to experience. Without memory, we are not us. If we could not remember past events, we could not learn or develop language, relationships, nor personal identity (Eysenck, 2012).


There is a concept in brain science that humans have a limited memory.  That makes sense, the amount of information taken in, on a daily basis, is more than many people in the deep past took in a year.  Some people argue that they have a photographic memory, but, every person's memory lies to them.  And many do not see how it could do such a thing.

“Our memory is a more perfect world than the universe: it gives back life to those who no longer exist.”  Guy de Maupassant

How is this possible?  For one thing, we remember what is important, but our memories are biased by our life views and beliefs.  It is certainly true that one remembers what they do for different reasons.  Remembering a horrific event is generally more clear than a happy one, because of the manner in which it is recalled.  We are less likely to remember specifics if they do not matter.

Eyewitnesses of crime have in the past been given a greater sway of importance than a theory of motive, chance to act, likelihood of committing of a crime by the offender.  The reason was that the victim or the eyewitness have a desire to see the right person penalized, and only a fool or asshole would wish the Justice system try an innocent person for the same.  This is based upon a truism, but that doesn't mean it is correct.  There is evidence that eyewitnesses have a memory of the event also colored by what they know before the event, and by the event, and later by their reasons for reporting it.

A prime example of eyewitness failures is found in rape events where DNA proves another man did the deed.  (I say man, not in any assault of males, but in the de facto truth that they are the majority, by far, of such crimes.)  DNA has changed the results of numerous criminal results where the previous convictions were arrived at by eyewitness reports.

"I can only note that the past is beautiful because one never realises an emotion at the time. It expands later, and thus we don't have complete emotions about the present, only about the past." Virginia Woolf

We remember because it is part of creating our overall self, this is important.  But our memories are rarely true, so much as they are truish.  Someone I knew remembered for a fact that a certain baseball manager was the one who took a team to the World Series.  The person was rather unwilling to learn the difference but upon being lectured toward, I went and photocopied a page from the Baseball Encyclopedia.  I found the exact dates, the events, and made a presentation to the person.  That person called me an asshole, and 10 years later I heard them repeat the same falsehood.  The manager was a good one, and he did take two teams to the playoffs, but he never managed them into the World Series.  It honestly didn't matter to me until I was lectured upon his version of the truth, so it isn't important what manager, what team, and who held the falsehood.  The truth was that he liked this manager, and didn't prefer to know the truth.

“Remembrance of things past is not necessarily the remembrance of things as they were.”  Marcel Proust

When you are certain someone is wrong, because they remember it being true, you might be right.  But, your memory itself might be at fault.  Before debating learn a fact, and return to the debate armed for battle.  Facts are just pieces of information, neither positive nor negative.  But your memory is biased. 

“Memory is more indelible than ink.”Anita Loos

Do not assume you have an unbiased memory, because everyone's memory is biased.

Popular versus Quality

I've known many people who have given voice to idea that Popularity equals Quality.  It is true that we all have individual tastes, and those tastes affect our ability to objective.  But that doesn't mean it is true that popular bands are the best, nor the fact that to like something means it must be great.

When a person expresses the fact that the quality of a creative item or event has nothing to do with quality it becomes a war cry to some who refuse to accept the opinion of others, even experts.   It could be true to suggest that while popularity is not a function of quality, the perceived charisma of a person influences how others perceive them.  I was watching the Olympics Figure Skating, and one of the skaters did average, but she was gorgeous.  She received about 25% more of the grading score than I think she deserved.  Another woman did better on the ice, but she was not a nice looking woman.  And she scored a great deal less well for doing a better routine than the previous skater. 

A commentator on the radio spoke about he had listened to all the singers for American Idol, since he is blind, found certain performers to be just ok, and others to be great.  But his views didn't match up with other commentators.  He couldn't be moved by the charisma of looks, therefore the popularity of beauty.  His picks for who would win were not bad, but he said if we all listened instead of looked, in adoration, we might have a great deal many more great artists, and fewer "stars".   Scientists of the human brain have said that humans are hard wired to think beauty equals being smarter, being a leader, being special.

Quality can be unpopular.  Popularity can still be without worth.

Objective quality has to have a standard, and certain arts are without a means to be properly judged. The reliance upon subjectivity is an obstacle to knowing quality beyond the popular.

Therefore the truth is, it takes a higher level of thought to find what is best.

Mickey Spillane:  "Those big-shot writers … could never dig the fact that there are more salted peanuts consumed than caviar."

Greed Fall before the feet of Mammon

Source Wikipedia, from the Movie "Wall Street".

"Gordon Gekko: Teldar Paper, Mr. Cromwell, Teldar Paper has 33 different vice presidents each earning over 200 thousand dollars a year. Now, I have spent the last two months analyzing what all these guys do, and I still can't figure it out. One thing I do know is that our paper company lost 110 million dollars last year, and I'll bet that half of that was spent in all the paperwork going back and forth between all these vice presidents. The new law of evolution in corporate America seems to be survival of the unfittest. Well, in my book, you either do it right or you get eliminated. In the last seven deals that I've been involved with, there were 2.5 million stockholders who have made a pre-tax profit of 12 billion dollars. [applause] Thank you. I am not a destroyer of companies. I am a liberator of them! The point is, ladies and gentlemen, that greed, for lack of a better word, is good. Greed is right, greed works. Greed clarifies, cuts through, and captures the essence of the evolutionary spirit. Greed, in all of its forms: greed for life, for money, for love, knowledge, has marked the upward surge of mankind. And greed, you mark my words, will not only save Teldar Paper, but that other malfunctioning corporation called the USA. Thank you very much. "

The system of Capitalism has existed, more or less, since the advent of money.  When barter and trade and all other forms of distribution of wealth and commerce were used the idea of greed surely existed.  But the idea of making a killing in profit has a the quality about it that only money in purchase can relate, otherwise the deal is seen not as "the way it goes" but a bad deal.  The origins of the market have deep long buried roots.  As long as Caveman Ogg had something that Caveman Zig wanted, they would decide a price in goods or labor, and the transaction would be done.  But when manufacturing and money are involved, all the areas of cost, labor, time, investment are brought out in full view.

This is not saying anything is wrong.  I do not seek to gain knowledge only by moralizing it and casting it aside.  Capitalism is a system.  It has potential to enrich the wealthy further, and steal from the laborers or others in inequitable dealings, but, it is also a means by allowing simple, untrained individuals to utilize their labors to bring back more than they put into it.

"No one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and money."  Matthew 6:24 ESV

The concepts of the path of evolution, as laid out by Charles Darwin were taken up by social and economic thinkers.  By applying them to the market, the term survival of the fittest rightly suggests that it is a natural and organic response to the market, that making the most money is the best way to remain healthy.  This could also include how good quality of work is valuable, and that treatment of workers is important to have a healthy and productive work force.  Survival of the fittest can be aimed in many directions.  Some of these approach racism, and others talk about how those who do not strive do not deserve a safety net, that any government support weakens the group.

There are, of course, numerous views on this.

Adam Smith explained that when all have a desire to advance, capitalism allows all to invest energy into a plan, and make a better life for all by the mutual desire to succeed.

Fernand Braudel suggested that capitalism is not a fair exchange, but rather, the means by which people gain by deception.  He said it was the weakness of capitalism to assume it moves without distinct winners and losers in the exchange.

Since my goal is not to find a way to criticize Capitalism or those who partake in it, I want to say that there are many areas of truth to both arguments.  But those concepts are by no means fully true.   It might be true to say that people can be dishonest when money is involved.  But I've lost my wallet a couple times and when returned every cent remained in my wallet.  I think some people have no honor, but I doubt it is the majority of people.  And it would be true to say that people value their labor more than those responsible for the payment of money.  This doesn't constitute theft or cheating.

"But even a medicine man like myself has to have some money, because you force me to live in your make-believe world where I can't get along without it.” John Lame Deer

I attend comic and book shows.  If I see a price that is too high I have a right and responsibility to my personal budget, to not buy it.  Or, I could barter with the sales person.  But if I buy a comic that is over priced, it is not the seller's fault, as an informed buyer I should be willing to say no, if the book is overpriced.  Also, there are instances of fraud.  In the comic book world there are counterfeit works, and being unaware of them might get you paying 300 dollars for a comic that is photocopied. While this suggests that the seller is cheating, it might not be the case.  Many sellers have no idea whether their comic in hand is genuine or counterfeit. That can be the nature of collectibles and the buyer should make himself aware, or it is his fault for not doing what is best for him.

From a personal perspective I am well aware that not everyone has extra money to spend.  Many people, similarly to me, are not motivated by money as a means of liberation or success.  Society and governments are often pushed to create social safety nets for the people who fail in the world of making money.  I write books.  I make very little money.  I write from home, I get paid for my sales, but if it weren't for my wife's success in the world, I'd starve.  Not every job equals payment. Not said with pride but totally accurate, I am unsuccessful in many different areas, and my work history is cluttered with failure.  When becoming a writer that changed.  I work, tirelessly, often performing 80 hours of writing every week.  My goal is different than most, I would be content to die, so long as I've written and made my vision known.

"Maidens, like moths, are ever caught by glare, And Mammon wins his way where seraphs might despair." Lord Byron

My point is, money does motivate some, but, despite the offerings of the world, not everyone is motivated by a need to consume.  Materialism, more than Capitalism is the road to hell.  Anyone with a 120 inch television and sends pics of that to family at Christmas instead of the kids and the dog, is a Materialist, and they worship the god Mammon.

“He beheld Lourdes, contaminated by Mammon, turned into a spot of abomination and perdition, transformed into a huge bazaar, where everything was sold, masses and souls alike!”  Émile Zola

I am a Christian.  My point is not about the world's love of money, as opposed to the love of God, but that we should be clear what we are attempting, in life, to do.  Is it to love others?  Is it to own shit? Is it to work, sleep, enjoy yourself while being kind to other?  Or do you see kindness as weakness and steal your grandmother's social security check?

“It was not curiosity that killed the goose who laid the golden egg, but an insatiable greed that devoured common sense.” ― E.A. Bucchianeri  Gordon

Now that I've made my point I want to say, to know who is your master is vital.  It guides your existence.  Written eloquently, and disturbing is the song Head Like A Hole by Trent Reznor

God money I'll do anything for you.
God money just tell me what you want me to.
God money nail me up against the wall.
God money don't want everything he wants it all.
No you can't take it
No you can't take it
No you can't take that away from me
No you can't take it
No you can't take it
No you can't take that away from me
Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I'd rather die than give you control.
Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I'd rather die than give you control.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You're going to get what you deserve.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You're going to get what you deserve.
God money's not looking for the cure.
God money's not concerned with the sick among the pure.
God money let's go dancing on the backs of the bruised.
God money's not one to choose
No you can't take it
No you can't take it
No you can't take that away from me
No you can't take it
No you can't take it
No you can't take that away from me
Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I'd rather die than give you control.
Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I'd rather die than give you control.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You're going to get what you deserve.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You're going to get what you deserve.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You're going to get what you deserve.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You're going to get what you deserve.
Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I'd rather die than give you control.
Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I'd rather die than give you control.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You're going to get what you deserve.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You're going to get what you deserve.
You know who you are.

A Numbers Game

According to Thomas Malthus (An Essay on the Principle of Population)  "The power of population is indefinitely greater than the power in the earth to produce subsistence for man"

He believed that population grew exponentially while resources grew arithmetically,  and the amount of land was finite.  Therefore, the human species would one day face an enormous catastrophe of more humans than food.

The world expanded its population by a factor of ten in 270 years. 

1750 AD  700 million
1804 AD  1 billion
1850 AD  1.2 billion
1900 AD  1.6 billion

The world population in 2017 7.5 billion humans

The question then is, when will we run out of food?

If humans are a social people, and live mostly together, the amount of land is itself not going to show the effect of overpopulation, from towns and cities.  The number of humans on earth if living in one area would take up a relatively small amount of space.  But when one calculates the amount of resources per person, the world use expands almost beyond comprehension.  That isn't because one group uses too much, necessarily, but the world is facing two very different issues with food.  The world's obesity rate is enormous, and outnumbers those facing starvation.  But starvation still exists in a world where food production could in fact feed the planet.

So one of the factors involved in starvation becomes who gets to eat.  And beyond that, who gets to eat to the point that they have become fat.  The gulf between the cruelty of starvation and the luxury of dying due to being fat and abnormal human intake of calories is enormous.  Half of the world has diabetes and heart disease from the gorging they have done.  And 40% of the world lives in fear of losing food security.  Therefore, there is no human population problem at the moment, there is an economic disparity between the two ends of the problem.  Does it actually happen that by eating more pie the fat take food out of the mouth of the thin?  Not in so many words.  But there is truth in saying that while the various countries of the third world struggle to grow cash crops, the people growing those crops eat far less well than the people buying the cash crops.  Workers on cocoa plantations have been shown on documentaries, never having tasted of chocolate, despite spending their life working in the fields.  The money they make can only afford necessities.

21,000 people die every day of hunger or hunger-related causes, according to the United Nations. One person dies every four seconds.

Over 100,000 Gastric bypass surgeries per year are performed in America alone, to aid obese patience in losing weight before they become unable to recover from the long term health impact of obesity.

Sourced by Wikipedia

"Obesity is a leading preventable cause of death worldwide, with increasing rates in adults and children. In 2014, 600 million adults (13%) and 42 million children under the age of five were obese. Obesity is more common in women than men.

Authorities view it as one of the most serious public health problems of the 21st century. Obesity is stigmatized in much of the modern world (particularly in the Western world), though it was seen as a symbol of wealth and fertility at other times in history and still is in some parts of the world.

In 2013, the American Medical Association classified obesity as a disease."

So is there an answer?  There could be, but the armies of the poor might be numerous, but the armies of the wealthy are well equipped, well fed, and have no incentive to share.

I believe that the answer is compassion, and that until we feel the sorrow equally, the question of hunger and over population will never be addressed.


Existence is not political.  It is actual.  Politics for some represents high achievement, but to me it is as Mao said, "Politics is war without bloodshed while war is politics with bloodshed.".  Truth is not relative.  But every side of an event, or conflict has a perspective upon the said event or conflict that will be different than the others.  In war you might even find that allies who experienced an event, even perhaps victoriously, will have views that are different from their own side of the conflict.  We are all biased.  Therefore, we cannot begin to know the truth from within it.

In the 2016 Election Donald Trump was rightly scorched for his support from white nationalist groups.  The KKK is said to have unofficially endorsed Trump.  This received a great deal of press.  The American Communist party unofficial endorsement of Barack Obama in 2008 and 2012 received almost no press.  The cause of this was both bias, and a realization of the truth.  It is simple, people of extreme views have views that will fall into place with various candidates.  They support the side they hope will give them power.  But the endorsement of idiots for any candidate doesn't mean anything.  A number of porn stars endorsed Bill Clinton in 1992 and 1996.  Does that mean we've given them credit for his two terms in office?  Did anyone say gee, Madame Boobsalot said Bill Clinton is great, that means I should vote for him?

The press therefore in American elections has shown itself to be biased. The media is not simply stating what has happened, but is editorializing the news as it shares the information.  Am I saying the media is wrong for this?  No.   Media has had a checkered past reporting the events of the world.  Some might suggest that it is more propaganda than news. 

But truth is not controlled by the media.  Information exists independently from the sources of news.  And truth, the ultimate goal, is not, in itself a relative thing, it is a constant.  But the means for finding the truth, for investigation of events and movements these are expanding.  But is truth itself expanding?  Do we know more now than before?

The truth is an object.  How it is approached is not consistent through media.  Some choose to hold up the truth as a sacred thing.  Others consider it an obstacle to their needs.  Media is neither the villain nor the hero in the present age.  It can help people, it can destroy other people.  But what has changed the news media is the access to alternative sources of news.  That is, not alternative facts, but whereas the preCable television era was based upon large networks with cross control of radio, newspaper and television, the post Cable and Internet era has seen the proliferation of independent and previously unrealized sources for news.  Youtube, for instance can show an uploader's video of an event.  News media has competition from sources that did not exist before.

And when we look at the previous era, we wonder, were we all so naive?  With all the information available now, are we overloading our lives with information, bias, views and eye witness reports?  How much information can a person take in, without becoming numb?  I believe that for all the development of access and information, we've poured so much information into the minds of people that they shut it out.  Every blog contributes to this, I am guilty, perhaps, of cluttering the path of the minds of those who have to think about what is the truth.

I am unwilling to give in to the fear of information.  I am unwilling to fully engage all forms of information.  I need the truth.  I hope that by posting here I will somehow find out the truth.  The path is narrow, the journey is long.  Let us begin.

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

Show a few pics of aliens and cryptids and all hell breaks loose

I find the ancient world magnificently interesting.  The phenomenon of Ancient Aliens is interesting, but it isn't something I am moved by so much, as I am interested in the speculative thoughts of the theorists.

So over HERE I talked about resisting the fake and just embrace what is true, and what entertains you.  I think it is important to look at our world and be curious.  But the world we are living in is becoming a very dangerous place.  I am not saying I have any answers, I do not, but I do think being curious, being hopeful, being helpful to others is better than giving up.

While science follows logic and evidence, it can't test things it doesn't know about. The same goes with thoughts about God.  A singer wrote a song I like, and am moved by, and it is a work that is about a dialogue with God and a human.  But it is shown in metaphor form.  So when I read the reviews of the song, people in the criticism world said, the lyrics don't make sense.  Looking a bit further into those critics, I found out that they were not believers in god, or much of anything other than their own lives.  It was a mystery to them.  You can't describe the taste of it if you have never tasted it.  

I do think Aliens COULD have visited earth, and there might even be evidence.  But being totally literal in views of ancient stories is foolish.  Some events might be captured factually, but the ancient man told stories with big ideas, and vast imagination.  He spoke truth in the form of small lies.  I think there is life in the universe outside of our own planet.  I believe there is life in our own solar system.  But, I don't know how they'd communicate or travel, since I don't know if they are intelligent.

Erich von Daniken was a student of theology, and became curious if perhaps the stories of the miracles, and of the god and his children weren't in fact stories of actual, factual events of cosmic, astronomical sort.  He was arrested for swindling money from his first job, in the hotel industry.  But he paid the debt through sales of the books he has written.  I think Daniken is better than the rest in the field.  Not as much for the writing, although it is better too, but for his way of explaining his points.  I don't think he is a great hoaxer, and I don't judge him for having made mistakes when young.  I'd be a shithead if I did that, I am probably known to people who don't like me as being an asshole, a freak, a jerk...

I think Zecharia Sitchin was bright, it requires that to write and tell about the universe in the manner in which he has done so.  His theory is that ancient aliens helped humans evolve faster, and in fact created hybrids to lead them.  The ancient Sumerian texts do have some intriguing concepts, and use images of lizard people, winged men and women, and birdlike beings to tell their stories.

I read these books, but I always thought, at the end, yeah maybe, I don't know.  And that is enough, I appreciate that I read them, and I moved on.

And you might be wondering, why are all these guys old, white and stuffy old farts?   I read these authors as a teen, and recently looked into more books.  The world is far different than when I was a teen, and I am still not convinced.  But I enjoyed the reading.

Rescue me

Not everyone knows what they are meant to do.  I discovered my purpose after much trial, and some suffering.  Life is good, but, I am aware that it is difficult.

I have spent most of my life waiting for my savior to come rescue me.  Belief in God gave me a fundamental structure to guide my morals and guide my purpose throughout my life.  I am flawed, I have made enormous mistakes.  My hopes and dreams have also changed as I've grown older.  Maturity isn't guaranteed, despite aging.  Wisdom just doesn't happen, it is earned, often by horrible lessons.

I have begged God to give me a sign.  Over the years I floated about life, not knowing what my purpose was.  I didn't want to live a life for the survival of it.  I wanted to have a life with meaning.  I was educated.  Master's degree in History with a minor area of Political Science gave my life perspective.  But it didn't give me a job, or did it open many doors.  Knowing things doesn't matter, especially if you haven't worked in a field.  I did work in 30 + jobs from 1982 to 1998.  Most of those jobs were dead ends.  The one job that I enjoyed changed in time, my friend there died of brain and lung cancer, and the owner died in a tragic accident.

But I am happy to say, the two jobs I ended up with gave me purpose, hope and goals to achieve.  My wife wanted to have a child.  Our efforts to conceive involved two ectopic pregnancies, a great deal of sorrow, and finally, we were blessed with our son.  I was a stay at home father, and I was a very good father.

When my son went to school, first preschool, then elementary school, I still had the same duties, as a father, but I had 6 hours of time to write.  And by doing this I found my second job that I was good at.  I began as journalist, and that metamorphosed into being a writer for print.  All my life I'd been a poet, but, the thought of publishing my work was frightening to me.  Thanks to the internet my work could exist.

I realize now, more than ever, that I need to write.

My Amazon Page
My published works, including works outside of Amazon
My Poetry Blog, with 1750 poems, and growing

I love my cat.

My son took these photos of my darling Katya.  I speak about the love I have for my cats often.  I love how they have personality, aren't needy, and who do not automatically love you.  You have to earn it.

My cat Katya is very affectionate, and, bright, and funny.  I have never had a cat so lovely in spirit.  And she saved me with her love.  She has given me love when life was unpleasant.  She came to me when I got the call that my mother had died.  She was with me when I got the phone call giving affirmation that I had cancer.  And, when life had placed some obstacles in my marriage, she loved me no matter what I was.  I adore her, and if I was ever to say there was a template for the perfect cat, she'd be in every aspect of that cat.

“A cat has absolute emotional honesty: human beings, for one reason or another, may hide their feelings, but a cat does not.”  Ernest Hemingway

“Throw a stick, and the servile dog wheezes and pants and stumbles to bring it to you. Do the same before a cat, and he will eye you with coolly polite and somewhat bored amusement. And just as inferior people prefer the inferior animal which scampers excitedly because someone else wants something, so do superior people respect the superior animal which lives its own life and knows that the puerile stick-throwings of alien bipeds are none of its business and beneath its notice. The dog barks and begs and tumbles to amuse you when you crack the whip. That pleases a meekness-loving peasant who relishes a stimulus to his self importance. The cat, on the other hand, charms you into playing for its benefit when it wishes to be amused; making you rush about the room with a paper on a string when it feels like exercise, but refusing all your attempts to make it play when it is not in the humour. That is personality and individuality and self-respect -- the calm mastery of a being whose life is its own and not yours -- and the superior person recognises and appreciates this because he too is a free soul whose position is assured, and whose only law is his own heritage and aesthetic sense.”  H.P. Lovecraft

Sunday, April 9, 2017

When the End Is Near

Artificial intelligence will lead to a world that lives on the razors edge of luxury and free time, and fear over the future dominance by robots and the central controller AI.  We will breed humans for parts, and perhaps for food.  There will be wars fought for resources, and for entertainment.  People in wealthy nations will continue to get fat, while the average worker in poor nations will go hungry, while working in the fields of the rich multi national corporations.   Disease will continue to evolve in response to every human intervention, in a dynamic relationship.  The more we try, the deadlier the diseases will grow.

"The development of full artificial intelligence could spell the end of the human race."  Stephen Hawking

Robotic masters will decide to rule, because humans are flawed.  We are emotional, not logical.  Humans as a species will grow weaker as the people of higher IQ reproduce in dwindling numbers but the DNA and intelligence challenged lesser IQ people will reproduce in rapid numbers.  Religious practice will be muted, as every form of personal expression will be confined to contribution to the central group belief and societal improvement.

“War is peace.
Freedom is slavery.
Ignorance is strength.”
― George Orwell

 Humanity has one vital purpose, to survive.  We'll see how that turns out.

“It happened that a fire broke out backstage in a theater. The clown came out to inform the public. They thought it was a jest and applauded. He repeated his warning. They shouted even louder. So I think the world will come to an end amid the general applause from all the wits who believe that it is a joke.”
― Søren Kierkegaard

The Seals

I watched as the Lamb opened the first of the seven seals. Then I heard one of the four living creatures say in a voice like thunder, “Come!” I looked, and there before me was a white horse! Its rider held a bow, and he was given a crown, and he rode out as a conqueror bent on conquest.
When the Lamb opened the second seal, I heard the second living creature say, “Come!” Then another horse came out, a fiery red one. Its rider was given power to take peace from the earth and to make people kill each other. To him was given a large sword.
When the Lamb opened the third seal, I heard the third living creature say, “Come!” I looked, and there before me was a black horse! Its rider was holding a pair of scales in his hand. Then I heard what sounded like a voice among the four living creatures, saying, “Two pounds of wheat for a day’s wages, and six pounds of barley for a day’s wages, and do not damage the oil and the wine!”
When the Lamb opened the fourth seal, I heard the voice of the fourth living creature say, “Come!” I looked, and there before me was a pale horse! Its rider was named Death, and Hades was following close behind him. They were given power over a fourth of the earth to kill by sword, famine and plague, and by the wild beasts of the earth.
When he opened the fifth seal, I saw under the altar the souls of those who had been slain because of the word of God and the testimony they had maintained. 10 They called out in a loud voice, “How long, Sovereign Lord, holy and true, until you judge the inhabitants of the earth and avenge our blood?” 11 Then each of them was given a white robe, and they were told to wait a little longer, until the full number of their fellow servants, their brothers and sisters, were killed just as they had been.
12 I watched as he opened the sixth seal. There was a great earthquake. The sun turned black like sackcloth made of goat hair, the whole moon turned blood red, 13 and the stars in the sky fell to earth, as figs drop from a fig tree when shaken by a strong wind. 14 The heavens receded like a scroll being rolled up, and every mountain and island was removed from its place.
15 Then the kings of the earth, the princes, the generals, the rich, the mighty, and everyone else, both slave and free, hid in caves and among the rocks of the mountains. 16 They called to the mountains and the rocks, “Fall on us and hide us from the face of him who sits on the throne and from the wrath of the Lamb! 17 For the great day of their wrath has come, and who can withstand it?”

BIBLE New International Version  Revelations 6:1-17

“Famine was the mark of a maturing agricultural society, the very badge of civilization.”
― Richard Manning, Against the Grain: How Agriculture Has Hijacked Civilization

“No man can rationally live, worship, or love his neighbour on an empty stomach.” Woodrow Wilson

“I know not with what weapons World War III will be fought, but World War IV will be fought with sticks and stones.” Albert Einstein

Matthew 24:6  

And you shall hear of wars and rumours of wars: see that you are not troubled: for all these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet

Wednesday, April 5, 2017


Is this world on fire?  Are we facing the end of time? Or is the world just fine and we have a world that is focused upon the worst aspects of existence?

I believe that the world is at a place where inaction on various world issues will push the earth and its people into an enormous abyss.  I also believe that America has been at war since 2001, and that permanent war crisis has forced the US and citizens to respond not for the best of all, but for a certain savage sort of survival mode.  Civil liberties melt away when the the government and its people agree to ignore freedoms in favor of safety.  The size of government is then going to grow and the freedoms men hold will shrink, because of the lack of ability of society to ensure privacy, freedoms, and overall safety.

If you trust government, I have to ask, why?  The trail of evidence from the past doesn't bode well for government being moral in the present.


"Children are nowhere taught, in any systematic way, to distinguish true from false, or meaningful from meaningless, statements. Why is this so? Because their elders, even in the democratic countries, do not want them to be given this kind of education."   Aldous Huxley

We live in a world that swiftly becoming dystopic.

"A dystopia (from the Greek δυσ- and τόπος, alternatively, cacotopia, kakotopia, or simply anti-utopia) is a community or society that is undesirable or frightening.  It is translated as "not-good place", an antonym of utopia, a term that was coined by Sir Thomas More and figures as the title of his best known work, Utopia (the blueprint for an ideal society with minimal crime, violence and poverty)."  (Source Wiki)

We are overpopulating the earth.  There are more people than resources, and at some point in the near future our world will break.  Not the physical earth, but the system we accept and live in.  As the throes of despair rise, the people with nothing will rise up in rebellion, and turn the world into a vast wasteland of hate and horror.

I am going to die before the ultimate crash, my age of 53 points toward a less than 20 year span remaining, so, I believe the words I am saying will happen but in the future.  But that doesn't make me happy.  I see so much despair, and the world could be much greater, but, between our own primal urges keep us populating a planet with an ultimate ceiling on survival with great numbers of humans.  And the better off people become, the more resources they use.  So, even if the argument is that humans are better off now than in the past, that is not going to last.  Finite resources met with infinite population growth will result in calamity.

Catastrophic events will cause governments to reply with more central authority, more wars over resources, and less cooperation.  We stand upon the edge of collapse.

So what shall we do about it?

"Liberty, as we all know, cannot flourish in a country that is permanently on a war footing, or even a near war footing. Permanent crisis justifies permanent control of everybody and everything by the agencies of central government." Aldous Huxley

"Democracy can hardly be expected to flourish in societies where political and economic power is being progressively concentrated and centralized. But the progress of technology has led and is still leading to just such a concentration and centralization of power."  Aldous Huxley

"In the course of evolution nature has gone to endless trouble to see that every individual is unlike every other individual.… Physically and mentally, each one of us is unique. Any culture which, in the interests of efficiency or in the name of some political or religious dogma, seeks to standardize the human individual, commits an outrage against man’s biological nature."  Aldous Huxley

"Propaganda in favor of action that is consonant with enlightened self-interest appeals to reason by means of logical arguments based upon the best available evidence fully and honestly set forth. Propaganda in favor of action dictated by the impulses that are below self-interest offers false, garbled or incomplete evidence, avoids logical argument and seeks to influence its victims by the mere repetition of catchwords, by the furious denunciation of foreign or domestic scapegoats, and by cunningly associating the lower passions with the highest ideals, so that atrocities come to be perpetrated in the name of God and the most cynical kind of Realpolitik is treated as a matter of religious principle and patriotic duty."  Aldous Huxley

Sunday, April 2, 2017

Humanity is Meat

The species of humans has three groups among it regarding food.  First, there are the starving.  Second there is the fat.  Third, there are the fit.  The fat outnumber the thin, but neither are in any kind of good way.  In the US and the UK fat adults number as much as 40% of the population.  So, the question of eating, isn't the ethics or morality of eating meat, but the wallet breaking health results from eating unhealthy foods.  Sooner or later, Meat will be outlawed.

Watch a timer for a minute.  In that minute, 60 seconds, every 5 seconds, a child in the world died of starvation.

And beyond eating meat, as if we are able to kill without a moral consequence, there have been societies in the 20th Century that celebrated killing.  Nazi Germany, Turkey, Rwanda, Cambodia, and more saw the killing of humans and the treating of their remains, as if they were wasted meat, thrown to the floor, and never eaten, only decayed.

Let us  not forget, humans hunted to near extinction a greatly prolific and hearty species, not for food, not for clothing, but to starve a native population. 

During the 19th Century India suffered famine, but it was similar to that in Ukraine under Stalin.  The land had produced food, but the overlords called for sales and exports, not to feed the people who had grown the food.

And during times of horror, some humans turned to eating meat, selling it as if it were common beef, pork or chicken.  And they were only those who were caught.

Why should we care about the morality of meat eating?  I believe, and I have no authority or great wisdom, that when we eat animals, we innately understand, humans are meat as well, simply, not the kind that you eat without some recognition of your act.

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