Monday, December 19, 2016


Many people have difficulty accepting change.  But in reality, the only thing a person's life can expect to have happen, is birth, eating, drinking, shitting, peeing, sleeping, and change.  Nearly everything else remains unwritten.  Change is part of the human story, and some of our bodies are not what we see them as, from the inside.

I have never personally seen myself as female.  I never saw myself as gay, but I did wonder why the hell women ignored me.  But that was more about being an intense poet guy than anything else, I think.  But in modernity we have changed almost all forms of traditional interpretation to modern.  Families formerly had two parents, now they can be a mix and match of adults and kids, but without even kinship.  Marriage used to be between two opposite sex adults, but now it is not.  And it used to be that people were forced to accept the fact that if you were born in one body, that body determined what gender you were to be called.

That has changed.  To some this is a matter of enormous importance.  There is fear over use of gender labeled bathrooms, fear over the use of what terms to use to call a person, and how to address the person and how to think about them.   I have many gay and lesbian friends.  I love them all.  I have had a few transgender friends.  All I could think when dealing with them, was not why does this chick have facial hair, but my god how brilliant their talent, or how bright their mind.  I am no saint, nor am I suggesting that everyone who has gender issues is brilliant or talented.  They are in my experience brave and talented because they have had to be such a powerful individual to follow through with their choice to follow their instinct, whatever society tells them.  I am amazed and moved by that.

I have nothing prideful to say about my penis.  It is what it is.  But to have a mind issue about my body that would make me abhor  having a penis?  Holy shit, I cannot imagine that.  And so, I welcome change, this era of freedom to be different is fucking awesome.  I realize there are many prejudiced against the people who shift genders.  I understand why they do, even while I disagree.  But for me this is the big change that will be a line we've crossed that makes our world better.  Individualism cannot go much further than perceptions of self, to the point of surgery and presentation of one's gender.

God bless everyone, whatever the gender, orientation, political party, belief in god, ideas about the future, taste in food, art, culture, or thoughts upon pizza.  

Saturday, December 17, 2016

The Big G, Giant Monsters, Friends, Foes and Robots

Godzilla is my favorite monster.  He is big, bad and hard as nails.  He fights good guys, he fights bad guys, kicks much ass and moves along.

His two best friends seem to be Rodan and Anguirus

Some of my favorite movies in the series

 There are giant robots...

There are defenders of the land

 Villains of the series

And one who is neither hero nor villain.

Wednesday, December 14, 2016

The Killers

As many as 80 million are the high estimate
Not counting numbers prior to taking over control of China from the Republic of China Nationalist government
Probably a total that is lower than reality.
Less than 100 remained in the wild by the late 1880s.

Timur the Lame,  Turco-Mongol conqueror
Books to pursue more information

History's biggest assholes

Friday, December 9, 2016

More answers to questions asked

I wrote a recent blog entry responding to questions.  It received a lot of views, and apparently inspired people to ask me what they had brewing in their minds.  So here are more answers to many questions from readers and friends and twitter followers.

1) What did you think bout that election?  (Asked by many folks)

It sucked, but I knew it would.  I am not amazed by the result, in fact, I'd told numerous people to stop being so overconfident regarding their candidates because that makes other voters complacent.  When Trump won I was not worried any more than if Clinton would have, but, while I am not a fan of Trump as a human being, I am not a fan of Clinton as a politician.  I don't know what she does with who she does or where she does in private.  I don't want to know.  The same goes for Trump.  But I do know that regardless of preference in who you might want, the things people argued against Trump for were often foolish.  The reasons for supporting Clinton were often just as foolish.  I believe that Clinton's emails were a bad sign, her and her husband's foundation was riddled with false premises and there were obvious examples of lying with her.  Trump lies all the time.  I expect it from him.  The difference wasn't that I was accepting one and not the other.  I hate both as candidates.  And as an elected official I think the policies of both will suck.  Lies happen, in politics, I get that, but both SUCKED.  Clinton however did it often as an elected official.  Trump just did it as an asshole running for office.  One is proven the other is bound to happen.  Both suck.

So, sadly, I stayed home.  I could not bring myself to vote.  I believe in voting, I registered, but, when I got sick, I realized, I'd be going in to do something that didn't matter due to the system, 3rd party candidates cannot win, votes in Minnesota will be Democrat, thus the electoral college will be against anything I do, and there was a good chance of me crapping myself due to the constant gut issues I have and was dealing with.  It sucks.  If you love Clinton, by all means feel bad.  If you loved Trump, hey way to go.  What I read with the wikileaks and my frustration over the treatment of Bernie Sanders meant to me that I was not who this election was aimed at anyway.

2) What in God's name do you mean, you don't regret various romantic inquiries, aren't you supposed to love your wife and no others?  (Asked by a Born Again Christian woman who has had a long online history of writing to me when she believes she has detected evidence that I am morally flawed)

Well, no, I don't regret anything I did, because I didn't do anything.  I received interest from various people, due to my work, and that is it.  Due to the fact that I am a poet people seem to assume that I am a fruity nancy boy, or some sort of Don Juan.  I emotionally understand love.  My poems reflect that.  But I am not, by any means, in pursuit of anything or anyone outside of my vows.  I joke that my wife scares me, but what really scares me is eternal condemnation and loss of all I love.

3) What do you read for pleasure, not reviews, not research, not bath room reading?  (Asked by a lovely friend from Facebook.)

I do love reading poetry.  I love the works of Albert Camus.  I love reading about military events.  I like a lot of different genres, formats and subjects.

4) Where would you most like to visit outside of your home state?  (Asked by a good friend, on Twitter).

Japan, Greece, Italy and, if I am forced to choose, I have to choose the Baltics, Sweden, Norway, Finland, and Ukraine.  For reasons I don't altogether know.  I think my ancestors must have walked there.

5) What is your favorite food?  (Asked by a friend who thinks I am insane, on Twitter)

Sushi.  Sushi, and more sushi.  Mostly when shared with my wife Beth and son.

6) Shower or Bath?  How often do you like to bathe or shower?  (Asked by a very lovely lady from Texas).

Bath.  Almost every night, often with my cat Katya walking along the edge, putting her feet in the water, and jumping on and off my chest.  It becomes a hoot when bubble bath is added.  She hasn't figured out what those bubbles are yet.

7) Why do you not have a Patreon page?  (Asked by people whenever I sell books or my books in deals and announce them on Twitter or Facebook.)

I hate it.  It seems like begging.  The same for Kickstarter.  It is that simple for me.

8) How can you believe in God but not UFOs, Loch Ness Monsters, or Bigfoot?  (Asked by a person who had read my Sasquatch story in Josh Howard Presents Sasquatch, and asked a buttload of questions about my beliefs regarding Cryptids and odd events.)

I don't DISbelieve in those things, but I consider belief to be an active thing.  I know from experiences that I've met and know something I consider God.  It is more than a thought, or a firm belief, it is active, I believe, not possess a belief.  I think UFOs probably exist, but most are natural or normal things mistaken for others, unknown technologies that we are not supposed to know, or in a very few tiny tiny amount of cases, something really different probably on the level of UFOs and aliens happen.  I don't really worry about them, if they exist, they'll let us know.

I do think Bigfoot has some authenticity regarding the issue of primates and evolution.  They would seem to be ancient and intelligent, and if they exist damn right they want to be hidden.  We'd turn em into fur coats, eat them, or display them in museums or carnivals.  Or elect them president.

Loch Ness monster might itself not exist, but I think there are a ton of things in the oceans we have yet to experience.  Maybe they are giant eels, or sea snakes, maybe not.  But I fear sharks so there is no way I am going swimming to find out.

9) We know you adore your son, what do you and he do?  (Asked by a gorgeous friend on Facebook).

He and I collect comics and books and movies, we listen to screamo, metal, alt rock, and punk.  He and I love a variety of anime and sci fi movies.  We eat sushi.  We talk about women.  And, we used to play hockey on xbox.  He was so good he got bored with that.  So I taught him to play another game.  I taught him first edition Advanced Dungeons and Dragons.  I did it because it is an exercise in creative collaborative story telling, and sometimes it takes a while to find the right group to play with.  In my experience one asshole is one asshole too many.  So I wanted him to experience fun with intelligent friends.  And my best friend Russ adventures along with us.