Thursday, September 11, 2014
Worship. Worship comes in many forms. But to worship a created thing instead of the creator, is called idolatry. I have often thought that nature is perfect, and perhaps, in itself, without any context, it is. But nature is a created thing. So in my view, America, which worships celebrity, fame, power, beauty, success, and more, is an idolatrous nation. I believe every nation is likely such, but having not lived elsewhere I can only offer that as a theory.
But the worship of idols has gone on so long, we have no reason to be ashamed for it. We have inherited this tendency from 30 previous generations, or more.
I do not offer these thoughts to condemn other people. I am idolatrous. I look at beauty and praise it, worship it, in my own wicked way. And I am ashamed of myself. I recognize that many people, if not most, do not believe in a god. I do. So when I worship the created, instead of the creator, I fail worse than others, who hold no beliefs.
Some of my behavior is instinct. I am made of meat, I am not so bright I escape my human trappings. I lust for women. Beautiful women make me want to have their body close to me, and to have sex with them. The extent to which I fight, depends upon how moved I am. I am not, however, a wall of stone. How tired I am, how long it has been since I've been with my wife, and simply the power of the beauty before me all play a role in my descent.
I fail. Every day, I fail. But I will go on, and try harder. Because the result if I do not, is to fall from this high perch, to the bowels of Hell. Lust is my greatest sin, it is a multiple headed snake, with poison to kill me. So mock me, track my fall, laugh at my folly. I deserve it.
But I believe in the Creator, the architect of everything. So whatever I endure, is worth the pain.